I hope you're having the best birthday in the history of birthdays!
I haven't been feeling well as of late, and I ended up having a heart attack on Wednesday night and another on Thursday night after I finally went to the hospital, which led to an emergency surgery. Well, I would just call it a procedure, really. I gotta tell you something. I was doing pretty well, but when they said I had to go in for an emergency surgery, the nurse told me I might want to call my husband and my kids. I asked her if I was dying, and she just said I should make some calls quickly. That broke me. My congenital fibromuscular dysplasia (FMD) caused a spontaneous coronary artery dissection (SCAD). The artery completely closed off and is too twisted at this point to fix (because they didn't believe me for three years, including my last stint in the ER in January, but I digress). Anyway, I quit vomiting once or twice an hour late Friday last night, which made me quite happy. And I could keep down a veggie omelet this (Saturday) morning, so that was amazing! I'm currently on "strict bed rest," and they said no visitors (I've convinced them that two or even three is necessary sometimes because of my kids), but they said absolutely no News or anything stressful. They also said I'm lucky to be alive, which isn't the first time, making finding my joy this week pretty darn easy! Plus, now I get to tell my kids that a mere mortal could not have had two heart attacks and an emergency surgery within 24 hours and lived. And whenever they get on my nerves, I can grab my chest and say, "Oh, my heart... " 😂
😱 OMG What a rollercoaster!!!! You are so luckI'm sending all my love and healing vibes!
Here's a very strange connection/serendipity: Wednesday night, I was having Graves' Disease-induced heart palpations and fell down a Google hole researching female heart attacks, since the signs are often much different than mens. So... I was probably laying around reading about lady heart attacks while you were out there HAVING ONE.
Wow. I hope you're being showered with all the care you need right now. ❤️
For me, aversion, all stripped down to its raw nakedness, feels like decisive protection. A slightly jumpy, overeager caregiver trying to shield me from harm. Not a baddy at all, someone to appreciate, to hold close, while being able to see past their shoulders into that which they swirled up and about to averse. That seeing truly takes practice.
I have been avoiding velvet for 40 years... Is today the day I touch it??
I was 100% thinking of your velvetphobia when i wrote this 🤣 TOUCH IT and see what secrets lie within!
I'm glad my strange phobia is inspiring to you :D The not-so-secret that lies within is that I'm an unhinged weirdo.
I hope you're having the best birthday in the history of birthdays!
I haven't been feeling well as of late, and I ended up having a heart attack on Wednesday night and another on Thursday night after I finally went to the hospital, which led to an emergency surgery. Well, I would just call it a procedure, really. I gotta tell you something. I was doing pretty well, but when they said I had to go in for an emergency surgery, the nurse told me I might want to call my husband and my kids. I asked her if I was dying, and she just said I should make some calls quickly. That broke me. My congenital fibromuscular dysplasia (FMD) caused a spontaneous coronary artery dissection (SCAD). The artery completely closed off and is too twisted at this point to fix (because they didn't believe me for three years, including my last stint in the ER in January, but I digress). Anyway, I quit vomiting once or twice an hour late Friday last night, which made me quite happy. And I could keep down a veggie omelet this (Saturday) morning, so that was amazing! I'm currently on "strict bed rest," and they said no visitors (I've convinced them that two or even three is necessary sometimes because of my kids), but they said absolutely no News or anything stressful. They also said I'm lucky to be alive, which isn't the first time, making finding my joy this week pretty darn easy! Plus, now I get to tell my kids that a mere mortal could not have had two heart attacks and an emergency surgery within 24 hours and lived. And whenever they get on my nerves, I can grab my chest and say, "Oh, my heart... " 😂
😱 OMG What a rollercoaster!!!! You are so luckI'm sending all my love and healing vibes!
Here's a very strange connection/serendipity: Wednesday night, I was having Graves' Disease-induced heart palpations and fell down a Google hole researching female heart attacks, since the signs are often much different than mens. So... I was probably laying around reading about lady heart attacks while you were out there HAVING ONE.
Wow. I hope you're being showered with all the care you need right now. ❤️
I hope you're okay, too! ♥️
So hard to catch in real time the sneaky interpersonal aversions that happen in the middle of interactions!
So sneaky! And lightening fast!
For me, aversion, all stripped down to its raw nakedness, feels like decisive protection. A slightly jumpy, overeager caregiver trying to shield me from harm. Not a baddy at all, someone to appreciate, to hold close, while being able to see past their shoulders into that which they swirled up and about to averse. That seeing truly takes practice.
Thank you for letting me meet them.